Truly

I ache for you
Somewhere deep inside emotion stirs.
Never felt
I ache
Because I cannot hold you.
I cannot even tell you.
It's not right,
Kind,
Fair.
I have failed
You.
so many times.
I never want to again.
Turnign my face away.
Is it for the best?
Yes, I know it is.
My heart screams,
Torn asunder,
I am in agony.
BUt I must learn
To wear a mask
To Build My faith on
My Father
Not on your love.
I must learn to love you
As I ought.
To hurt you less,
To be less selfish.

If I come back,
then I can.
I will be
Completely
Utterly.

Yours