Wednesday, May 06, 2009

A familiar homesickness

It's a familiar feeling.  Moist, hot air - a stillness that can be felt.  
The lull before the thunderstorm.  
I feel an ache in the pit of my stomach.  Can you really call this homesickness?  Or is it just an overactive imagination?
I want that flat overlooking Christmas Pass.  I want to watch Samongo monkeys stealing fruit from the trees.  I want to breathe the nectar of African air, sweat and dust and smoke mingling.  
I will have a little Datsund with a manual drive that sometimes stubbornly refuses to start.  I have to park it facing downhill to jumpstart it.  
I'll have a cat that lurks on my verandah for scraps and will come cuddle on cold nights - but will disappear for days during summer, proudly presenting me with his catch - a mutape, perhaps.
I will have a gas stove because sometimes the electricity will go out - although not as much as it used to.  Things are improving.  Mugabe is dead.
I will teach at the primary school in Mutare.  My students are black and Indian, colored and Chinese, white and Portuguese.  They look at me with wide eyes.
Who expects a slender redhead in the middle of Africa?
And I will go to ladies' class every Thursday afternoon.  I will teach Sunday morning Bible class.  I will have colored construction paper from America.  The children will marvel but will also remember my stories.  
I will have learned Shona by that time and be able to converse easily and teach in it as well.